Sunday, May 27, 2012
Haircut
This is what Kelly looked like awhile back! This is one of my all time favorite photos of her because it's just so funny! Needless to say she needed a haircut, so the picture below is her "AFTER" photo. From "derelict" to "fabulous" lol!
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Out of the darkness
“There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
-Laurell K. Hamilton
The fog is beginning to clear in my mind. Nine pounds heavier and a new medication later, I think I am finally on my way up and out of one the most crushing episodes of depression in my entire life. Months of feeling incapable of doing simple tasks and overwhelming emotions of pain, anger and of course anxiety have begun to lift slowly.
I am so thankful for my loving husband, family and friends who have helped me to seek out the help I needed and get back on track.
This has truly been a dark night of the soul.
While much can be attributed to a medication failure, I can't overlook the fundamental spiritual and emotional changes I have gone through in in the last few months. I have learned much about myself and about other people, and begun to change long ingrained behaviors in regards to negative thoughts and people pleasing habits. I have let go of many things I once thought were so vitally important to a contented life and embraced uncertainty.
I've learned to be more in tune with that "gut feeling" and respond appropriately.
I've learned how to be angry, really angry, in a healthy way.
I could list so many more important life lessons, but this is not the point of my post. My only point is to thank those that have been extra kind and supportive during a time when I felt like the biggest failure on earth. Thank you for being patient with me, as I often isolate myself and forget to consider others while in the midst of my own pain. I've turned the proverbial corner, and walked away a better person because of my dark night.
The fog is beginning to clear in my mind. Nine pounds heavier and a new medication later, I think I am finally on my way up and out of one the most crushing episodes of depression in my entire life. Months of feeling incapable of doing simple tasks and overwhelming emotions of pain, anger and of course anxiety have begun to lift slowly.
I am so thankful for my loving husband, family and friends who have helped me to seek out the help I needed and get back on track.
This has truly been a dark night of the soul.
While much can be attributed to a medication failure, I can't overlook the fundamental spiritual and emotional changes I have gone through in in the last few months. I have learned much about myself and about other people, and begun to change long ingrained behaviors in regards to negative thoughts and people pleasing habits. I have let go of many things I once thought were so vitally important to a contented life and embraced uncertainty.
I've learned to be more in tune with that "gut feeling" and respond appropriately.
I've learned how to be angry, really angry, in a healthy way.
I could list so many more important life lessons, but this is not the point of my post. My only point is to thank those that have been extra kind and supportive during a time when I felt like the biggest failure on earth. Thank you for being patient with me, as I often isolate myself and forget to consider others while in the midst of my own pain. I've turned the proverbial corner, and walked away a better person because of my dark night.
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